Wife filed for divorce...Is there still hope?

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He does not want to be away from me. He is worried that I will be lonely. I told him that I will be okay, and he should go and have fun. I have been spending every moment with the kids that I can. I don't know what the hearing's outcome with be. I am scared sh!tless about it. I will be okay. Less than a week.

I did come up with a present for him. I will give him the first tackle box that my Dad bought with own money at 9 years old. I told my dad and he said it was good idea. I repainted it when I was I kid, and it is really nice. Son loves it. I will put a ribbon on it, and I will make him a card by hand. D said she will help me, and it is a good idea to her. She smiled because I am going to give her my old art book I made when I was a kid too. I have been giving them all my things from when I was a kid because I have a lot of stuff I saved over the years, and I have nothing to give them but these old things. I hope they like them. I want them to have them while they still appreciate them.


I am so glad for $1 double burgers and $0.39 tacos too because W has decided I will not eat dinner anymore. It is okay. I will be okay. I am sure that family will not recognize because I have not seen them in over 2 years. I am more bald and grey than I have ever been. Stress will do it to you. I missed the family reunion. Kids and I were disappointed, but I will be okay.

I say that W is shopping for OM's Bday present. I was a little sad because she did not even give me anything for my Bday, but I did not expect anything. My anniversary is this month too, but I will be okay.

I have tough week coming, and I am very scared about it, but I will be okay even if she gets me homeless like she has threatened me with from time to time. I will survive.

I just needed to get everything out of my system to keep healthy, focused, and to remain strong for my sweet kids. They need me to be okay for them.

I guess my marriage is over no matter what because I could never be with W ever again. I just want to know where I stand, and live my life.

I am trying for a long-term temporary position that should give me enough for a small mobile home rental. I could buy the kids their first pet, a kitty cat. They will have that to enjoy and look forward to when they spend time with me. I am so worried about them. I hope they will be okay. I will do my best to be there for them always.

I know it is long, but I just could not stop writing, and I have not been able to write really anything all day.