Dude, at the very beginning I said the pros would be along and they have. You have some heavy hitters on here trying to help you. Take it from me, they are trying to show you the light.
This stuff is hard. Really hard. You will probably not be able to do this on an island. Stick it out and keep coming back to the well. Sure, it's hard to hear the things you are being told, but they are giving you the benifit of objectivity supplimented by tons of experience. You are fresh out of both and you need it more than anything else right now.
You can do this, but not alone. So don't quit.
Good luck.
ADAPT. OVERCOME. IMPROVISE. -Tom Highway
Me: 43 W: 40 S12 & S9 Married 17yrs Together 20yrs
