i am. it's not faking it .. my friend couldn't even tell that i was going through a break up because i don't seem sad at all. is that bad? it is a d .. i should be a bit morose, no?
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I have to wonder about the 'close relationship' with your parents though. You recently said that you didn't want to go home while you still feel so vulnerable because of your father's emotional abuse. I think it is wise to stay away from people who aren't loving towards you at this difficult time, yet, I have to say that the relationship with your dad doesn't sound like a close relationship. A good father would never say those things to his daughter.
that was 5 yrs ago. from what my mom has told me, he has mellowed out over the last year. when i was home back in may, he commented that i was too thin. he was genuinely concerned because i was anorexic thin. you could literally count my ribs. it was not healthy. i think he sensed that something was wrong on the homefront.
my marriage breakup has had a huge impact on my family. sometimes i feel angry at stbxh because his decision to d-bomb hurt my family. if he hurt me, that's okay but my family? no. that's not cool. my family has never experienced this before. my brothers and sisters are all married and even though they have the occasional arguments with their spouses, it's never something to d over.
being the only one in my family to have a failed marriage makes me feel like a failure.
i am determine to come out of this stronger and better. my mom has put all of her focus on me over the last 8 months. my sisters have told me that mom thinks of me all the time. it breaks my heart to see my mom like that. it makes me angry at h for being so selfish.
it is a d .. i should be a bit morose, no?
