squash night tonight. one of my guy friends there asked me if i was driving to the city next weekend. he's heading to the city to participate in a big squash tournament. he knows i have family in the city so he was wondering if i needed company (if i was going to see family). the other players were organizing a carpool. he said he could drive but he was not crazy about carpooling with the other players. it was too much hassle to sync with their schedules. also, he drives a gas guzzling v8. he said if i was okay with him driving my car, he could drive for part of the road trip. the long drive is tiring and having a second driver is always nice. the last guy to drive my vehicle was my stbxh. i've never let another guy drive my car since. but he said he was a good driver. we ended up trading phone numbers and he would confirm with me next week. we work a few blocks away from each other so it wouldn't be a problem if i picked him up after work and head out. we decided to keep our carpooling plans between the two of us. we haven't confirmed anything but it was a possible plan.
this would be guy #3.
my friend and fellow squash player annie had a brief conversation today. she said i seem to be handling my separation/divorce very well. she said that whenever she sees me at the club, i'm always smiling and having a good time. it was nice to see.
something must be working. my hands don't hurt and i don't have the look of pain on my face yet.
does this mean i don't want my h back?
actually, my feelings are more like this .. remember how i said that i was having so much fun that i felt wrong to be enjoying it all myself? i wish i could show my stbxh that life is fun and that i would love for him to be a part of this. i'm having fun and i still have a close relationship with my parents. you can have both.
