Hi, Steady. Yeah, I guess two months to the day, eh? I changed my name at the start of this thread. I only had on one before and that was up to the confirmation of the A a month ago.
It's one of my "habits" to expect too much of myself. Yes, textbook NMMNG. I know. I was kidding myself thinking I would be able to pull off an Alen or Gucci or Puppy only a month after the A was confirmed.
I was just disappointed that I didn't get "full value" for the meeting. But as we know, I should have been in it for ME, not her, right?
Learning.
In proper perspective, I did well enough for only two months at this. Could have/should have been better but I allowed her to affect me. And that is a habit I have to break. And smoking
There will be other meetings. And better experiences. I have to remember that this entire process is FOR me. I have to plan what I WANT out of the meeting and stick to the tasks.
And it wouldn't hurt to try to be pleasant during the experience. A smile now and then would be good. But because I feel confident it is right not for her benefit.
Tough to "be the better option" without trying to do it for her.
I need to get "her" out of my mind as the best option for me. Right now, she isn't.
