I'm just going to sit back for the next few days and reanalyze things. I don't really have any friends outside of work. My family has been supportive as they have been helping me with my current living situation (my parents own rental houses). I know that I need to find a way to have better finances, however it would be really hard for me to get a job right now because of my current looks. I know it sounds crazy, but I have bad teeth and a missing front tooth. I had $3,500 saved up to get them fixed, but the wife won't let me have access to that money. I need to get it fixed so that I can get another job. Shoot, I probably wouldn't be able to even get a date until after the oral surgery.
I'm not going to contact the wife for at least a few days. It's just so freaking hard to not worry about what is happening between her and the OM. I thought that by still helping with the route and mowing the lawn that it would prove to her that I am dedicated to making things work. She never asked for it as I just volunteered. Thought it was the right thing to do since she thought that I wouldn't change my old ways. Thought it would prove her wrong, but guess I was wrong all along.
