Journaling: Nothing much to report. More traffic on the house. Maybe it will sell? Who knows... More texts from STBX. Didn't grate on me as much, but my conversations with the lawyers and therapist has been. I realized that this morning. My issue was more around the time lines (can you tell?) and the rehashing of the story. I think that caused it to come back. Doesn't help that I've been burning the candle at both ends as well. I suspect I'm over tired. That's ok, knowing it helps and I'm starting to cut back on some things to help. I recall the therapist telling me that we are a bit unique from what she's seen. Different than most. That I'll be done and sometime after that STBX will make up her mind. That this would have happened now or in a few years, but that it was bound to have happened. That has haunted me for a bit, and the lawyers questions brought that all back up.
Is what it is and that's how it will be. There can be no other way, and I like that. The ambiguity that went on for so long was enough to kill a horse; thankfully I'm not a horse, although I sometimes play one on the internet...
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
