Your input is really appreciated by me. Thanks. You're always a straight-shooter who has both feet on the ground.
It makes sense to me that whatever I depend on for my happiness will always end up controlling me, and if I feel like I 'have to' be involved in a relationship in order to be happy, then the approval of that other person will control my self-esteem...and I don't want how another person views me to dominate the way I view myself.
And I don't want to make any big decisions based on feelings. I want them to be based on wisdom.
There is wisdom in your words CityGirl, and I appreciate your input and feedback. I hate like he'll that things are the way they are...but they are. I'm nearly 50 years old. I never figured that my family would be ripped apart, nor that all my hopes and dreams for she and I, and our kids, would be destroyed...but they have been.
Strong, powerful, secure, confident, compassionate, resiliency, persistence and determination...these are all words I want to live by.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
