Punkin...it is pretty normal to get into the self-doubt mode...here is a person we came to trust and depend on and then they are telling us it is "us" that is the problem and they are seeking a solution to finally be happy...I get that, we all do...
As for others...what it comes down to is this...if you have not walked in my shoes, you can not understand the path I am on...if you have walked in my shoes and took a different path, that was YOUR path, not mine...I have to live with my decisions so there for I will make them, right or wrong, I own them!
Finally, we are not nuts! The Bible gives a wonderful definition of LOVE: (if your not a bible reader, then skip this)
(1 Corinthians 13:4-8) 4 Love is long-suffering and kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, does not get puffed up, 5 does not behave indecently, does not look for its own interests, does not become provoked. It does not keep account of the injury. 6 It does not rejoice over unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth. 7 It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 8 Love never fails. . .
In this scripture I found my greatest strength...I wasn't crazy, I had true love for my H at a time when he didn't love me or even himself...my love endured all things, it didn't fail! Even now this scripture is something I reflect on from time to time to make sure I keep my love genuine...I have true love...I think some that can just give up and walk away have not experienced this type of love...which makes their decisions different from mine...I believe people have different types of love...and we hear it from our WAS..."I love you but I am not IN love with you"...this is another kind of love. When my H returned, he had to work on loving me again...he wanted the type of love that would endure all things...romantic love is good...but it isn't always enough...we know that...and that is why I feel that most of all we need to work on true love as defined above...then we will be our strongest, no matter what!
Take care Punkin...
ps. Just because your D22 doesn't have insurance doesn't mean that she can't get her meds...there are resources that will help her...some drug companies will even pay for people who need the medication but can't afford it...something to consider because until she gets treatment and stays with it she will continue to have a rough time...that is no way to go through life at such a young age...or really at any age.
