Wii, your weekend sounds fun. Glad to hear things are good with you!
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
Things are moving along with Whatis. Some days good, some days not. I don't think the St. John's Wort is making any difference and my sleep is still a hit or miss thing. I've found that if I listen to relaxation/sleep CD's my sleep is actually worse! Maybe it's just one more unusual noise my brain has to incorporate and it doesn't want to. I'm still meditating daily, except this weekend. It's a nice break for the old noggin and I plan to keep it up. I've been going out for a lot of walks last week, trying to get some exercise in. It's hard to stay calm when so many things just keep popping up in life. For over the last year the most stress free time I've had is six weeks of Bronchitis! Next week my daughters and wife are going away to the cottage without me. This is the first time that's ever happened. I was invited but declined. I just think it's too hard to spend seven days together as a family and then have to go back to living alone again. I think this will be hard for me though. We used to go to a different cottage resort every summer with friends and their kids, this will be the first time I won't be there. I'm sure I'll have a few cries during the week. But, wife wanted us apart and this is part of the reality. Sure, we can spend the odd day together as a family but a week away is not going to happen! Anyway, thanks for looking in on me Mish and IR.
Wii, have you tried Melatonin for sleeping? It helps you to relax and puts you to sleep? I take it once or twice a week when I have some tension and anxiety.
Well about the cottage thing, it'll be tough for sure but perhaps the kids can call and check in with you each night? And you can make plans to be with friends for the week? How about a party at your place? invite that girl that falls asleep after talking to you!
The thing is Wii, there will be lots of firsts for all of us and we just have to come up with ways to deal with them better and replace the old memories that haunt you with the new ones that you'll enjoy next year.
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
Thanks OT. There is pain and I have to allow myself to feel it when it comes up. I've always wanted to do the best I could for my family and maybe shoved aside certain feelings. But, two years ago my family went to China for three weeks without me (and saw the Terracotta Warriors in Xian) and I lived so I'm sure I'll get through this too. What is is
