Wife lost her love for me - my story

[TomLost Love]

I was down to see my D11 in FL this past weekend - took off Thurs and Fri so was down for a long weekend. I stayed at my MIL/FIL's house, and my D11 stayed there with me. My MIL/FIL are great people and I felt totally comfortable there with my D11, as I always have. It is strange though - being separated from my W, yet all else stays the same with the family.

I had a great time with D11 and we spend the whole time together - wildlife park, beach, ice cream, swimming in pool, miniature golf, table games, crazy eights, watching TV at night, laughing, talking, just hanging out. Getting dropped off at the airport last night to leave was the hard part - for both D11 and I. Tears flowed again for us both. I am going to try to see her again near end of Sept for her Birthday - we'll see with house, finances, job, etc, how things are going then.

As far as my W, she stayed away back at her apartment for the most part. My MIL (her mother) said that it is normal behavior for her since she moved down there. I didn't push anything as far "us" and am just giving her as much space and freedom that I can. I wanted to tell her how great she looked and how much I miss her too - but kept that all to myself. I didn't ask any questions or talk much about W to her parents, and I kept my 180 and all rules in place. Very hard to do, as everyone on this board knows I am sure. You just want to embrace and hug and hope that all is ok, but you know that would be a mistake and that you need a signal/sign to initiate that, and that it may never come to pass.

I am going to write and send letters to my D11 - we text or talk every night, but I want her to know that I am not forgetting about her and that she is a big part of my life, even a thousand miles away. I thought about beginning to write to my W also, but again, I think sticking to the 180 is still the right plan and let her call, text or write to me if that is what she wants.

So - the miles are between us again while I wait out my W's journey and continue along during mine. I have a new appreciation for the saying "What doesn't kill you will make you stronger". I feel like there are emotions at work slowly tearing my heart apart every day, and I sometimes don't know how I made it thru to the next day, but I find a way.

Hope all is well with everyone out there on the boards and that you all are hanging in there also.