I know this is horrifying to have to endure but I IMPLORE you not to make any asset divisions on emotion. DO NOT sign the house over to your H to avoid dealing with a long battle.
And maybe it's not about a regression but more what we need to do to come out of deep pain in a meaningful way. This path you are in now is present for a reason. The reason may be to lead you towards a much different life that may not be what you thought but also may be exactly what you are supposed to have.
