i have learned the importance of coach's advice. coach always told me to know what triggers the snakes on the brain and handle it.
when i go to my intel sources, although i don't find anything conclusive, my heart races. i get nervous, and my body just fills with anxiety - what if today is the day i find something? when i don't consult my intel sources, i am at peace.
it's time to stop. identify the snakes and stop. it isn't doing me any good.
what does it mean to find something? what would be different if he was? a change in the game plan. i would stop looking foolish by working on me and hoping he would notice. geez, this feels like the early days when i liked him but i was sure he didn't know i exist. ugh .. this is so junior high. someone hit me with a 2x4.
i went to the gym yesterday. muscles are a bit sore. i worked on chest, arms, legs, and some abdominal work. my shoulders and abdominals look good. i still look feminine but everything is a bit toned. my legs need some toning. i've neglected a legs workout for a while. i really need to get to the gym during the week.
