And I feel like I am finally looking at this from a position of strength, not like a clinging vine--I want this more than I need it.
Re-reading it, I realize now you meant this in your present frame of mind and processing/conclusions, am I right? I originally read it as past tense: "I wanted Texas guy more than I needed him," and I was suggesting that perhaps - in the past - you needed him more than wanted him.
Originally Posted By: hoosiermama
what part of all that processing was a joy to read?!
The clarity of your processing, conclusions and acceptance:
Originally Posted By: hoosiermama
... And I think I finally understand that's healthy, not clingy... I understand that he's still healing, I truly do...For all I know, I won't see him again until next spring, and that's unacceptable...isn't it a good thing to want to build upon them--slowly, carefully, but still--building bridges and not walls? And I feel like I am finally looking at this from a position of strength..I'm okay. It's okay to want to test the waters of intimacy... without running for cover when feelings surface...that doesn't make me the weaker one.
Peace,
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
