Well my friends .... back from a weekend of fun, sun, and wine
It was good for me... no demands on me... just time to unwind and relax and some good, supportive conversation with someone who loves me.
I missed the kids, though. I guess that is something you have to get used to isn't it? Any advice or tips from anyone who has been there are welcome. I am finding it hard to go from 20 years of family life to periods of time when the kids are away from me and I am not involved. Maybe there is no way to adjust to something like that, other than that you just do get used to it over time. But, that part sucks.
I am noticing H is having difficulty getting used to losing his best friend. He noticed me spending time talking with the kids about how their weekend was and he kept trying to talk to me too. Can you believe it? I just did my own thing, focused on the kids and went to bed early. What part of his decision to divorce me does he not get? Sheesh!
Also some sadness for me with starting to pack to move out. How do you dismantle 20 years of life together? I came accross old cards from H I had kept. It was heart breaking. He was saying as recently as 2007 how I still "took his breath away" and how proud he was of all the milestones we had passed together. So sad.
Anyway, a new day today.... busy with work and continuing to pack and focusing on the kids.
