Now I'm really not focusing at all on DBing in the sense of getting her to come back. There are bigger issues; her mental health/balance, coparenting, etc. Reconciliation just can't happen without some serious counseling on her part. And one relief is that despite my neglect, that didn't kill our old M. It sped it to an early demise, but there was no way it was going to last with her issues.
I'm still going to do my GAL and 180s. But although I can improve, and I've made mistakes, I'm really pretty happy with myself. I'll have to think about why I was attracted to someone so flawed, flaws that deep down I knew when we were dating. Something in that attracted me. Hopefully my IC will be able to help me find the answers.
I'm so happy about my dieting and exercise, and since that's one of my reclaimed values, I'll keep on with them. Same with my faith. But it really hits home that all these changes are for me.
