ok, first let me apologize. I really did not mean to come off as hard as I did. It's late and your story really just struck a nerve. Nothing I said was incorrect, but it also wasn't very encouraging.
Look, you have stumbled accross a tremendous resource here. I cannot begin to tell you how much difference the site and the folks here have made in my life. It is the same over and over. Poor sap LBS comes on here and is generally in the darkest period in their lives. Their esteem is dead. They have no idea what to do. Within weeks, they start doing things that make life worth living and little by little, their self esteem blossoms and they begin to realize that they are in charge of their lives and start living it.
No, I can't say that this will save your M. Nobody knows that. But it will save your heart and make the future much brighter. Please consider doing the work. Research. Read as many threads as possible and start acting to build your life back into the life you deserve and want. You CAN do this. Another useful thing that I found helpful is using your thread as a journal. Sometimes just writing the words down excersizes a lot of demons.
Good luck and welcome aboard. But seriously, do find an IC.
ADAPT. OVERCOME. IMPROVISE. -Tom Highway
Me: 43 W: 40 S12 & S9 Married 17yrs Together 20yrs
