He is specialized, but we live in a very diverse neighborhood, so nobody really knows or cares what is going on. I guess my main concern is the EA has has been having for about five years. They started right after our daughter was born and I just ignored it, moved up here from Madison when he got out of residency, and have continued to ignore it and his increased drinking until I finally caught him cheating, physically.
He feels bad about what he has done, but I can't see how he will change now that he has been caught. He says he likes being on his own but I can't stand to see our family ruined. Michele says stuff about the family unit being destroyed and it's true. I cry thinking about holidays, birthdays, and the future, especially since I don't want any of this.
I am giving it until September 30, when his lease ends. If he needs more time, he'll have to get a year lease and we'll have to work out the childcare arrangements. I don't want to consult a lawyer so soon and I want him to continue to get IC. Hopefully his meds will kick in and he'll see reason, but I can't count on that.
I just want this nightmare to end.
Me: 34 H: 34 S: 8 D: 5 M: 10 yrs T: 12 yrs Affair: 7-1-10 (lasted 2 months, I caught him by reading emails, there was no sign of stopping until I caught him) S: 7-16-10
