Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[awest1217]

Get some rest! Believe me, S's room took a lot longer than I thought, but it was worth it. I also didn't do much for his room as a nursery. It was already a nice pale yellow wallpaper which was good for a baby so no problem there. I mostly decorated.

Be glad S doesn't want to help. That is what drove me crazy, but I let go of my control and let S help, and now he has a great memory of painting his room and putting up the stars.

With H, it is so hard with him to know what is best to do. Keep doing what feels right. He may decide to be with OW3 more and if he does, that is his choice. Then again he may keep asking you to hang out more and that is a good thing. It is good to not be available all the time, but I would say for now (unless you know OW3 is still around and don't want to be a part of that which I support completely) go out with him once in a while. Kind of like throwing him a bone. It is awesome that you told him no today because with doing S's room, you don't need to play hostess to H. You need to take time for you so that is good for you. I also think it is good that you already had errands to run so it wasn't like you were blowing him off. He missed the time by sleeping and you already had plans. All not your fault. It is his for sleeping.

Hope you don't get sore because I did. Have a great week!