cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[awest1217]

My sitch was rough and horrible living in it, but now on the other side, I am so glad to be out of it. You have no idea what it is like wondering constantly if there is another OW lurking around the corner or when I would find the next picture or next incriminating text. Not on purpose, but things always just would happen to fall in my lap, just like the post card. This going through the D, for me, is the easier part. I am having a hard time losing the extended family. I was really becoming friends with my BIL and his parents were ok so that is rough, but otherwise I don't see much of a down side. I was always wondering and always worrying so it is nice to not feel that anymore because he is not my problem.

With S, he is still not transitioning great. I mean he still has a ways to go and it is killer on me, but he will be ok. He is always excited to see daddy, but something is definitely stressing him out. I don't know if he misses me or if he is worried about me or if it is something else, but he definitely is very clingy, really overly clingy, for about 3 days after the visit. Then he is fine and back to normal. I am happy when he leaves. Happy when he comes home. I ask him about his day and whenever he talks about H I always encourage him to talk so I am doing what I can. I think this time I will let S know what I will be doing while he is gone and see if that helps. Maybe knowing that I am busy will help him?

The rest of the weekend was fun. I am trying to get as much fun out of the last week that I can. Next sunday i will have to go back to normal. Saturday S was clingy at the party, but I think I accidently woke him up early from his nap when I went to check on him. It was time to leave for the party and he had slept his normal time frame, but when I looked in I think the door woke him. Then I had my nephew with us so i had to hold him at times because he is 15 months and S did not like that, but after about an hour he was fine. He slept really well last night and was great, although I was PMSing so I told S to leave me alone for a while, and he did so then he went to bed at his school bed time (8) and so did I and we both woke up happy. Today we had church then went to my parents for an impromptu get together. S acted my sister to go with her so she took him and I went over after changing. S played outside in a kiddy pool and in the sprinkler all afternoon and now is exhausted.

Tomorrow finishing my room then the rest of the week is up in the air, but it will be fun and relaxing no matter what we do.