What to do?

[packergirl34]

H just got on meds about seven weeks ago. He is taking prozac, was taking lamictal but had a bad reaction, so is off that, and is also taking antabuse to stop drinking.

He is seeing a counselor pretty regularly. I went to see our MC, but she is advising me to wait until he has had a few more sessions with her, because it's basically all on him to decide what to do.

I have not consulted a lawyer because I think I'm still in a bit of a state of denial. He has not been in contact with one, either, so that makes me feel better. Wisconsin in a no-fault state, so no matter what happens, I get at least half and we've been married almost 11 years and I supported him while he was in school and then left my job for his job up here and has been at home per his request the last few years. He wants me to keep the house, but I don't want it without him, because he custom built it together four years ago and it's not a home without him. So, if we end up splitting up, he will have the house and will buy me a house in the same neighborhood so that we don't disrupt life for the kids too much. I have also read about how parents share the house and take turns staying at an apartment so that the kids don't have to shuffle from one house to another. We'll see. I don't want to need to consider these options. I hope it's just some weird mid-life crisis he's experiencing and he'll come around, but I have to stay strong for whatever comes my way.

I just made a new playlist for my iphone called "Summer 2010 sucks" and I like it. Lots of Beck Sea Change songs. I just hope there will be an opportunity to erase that playlist in the near future.