Sorry about your gma. It's tough enough going through these times and then lose someone in your life that has always been there for you.
I know all about the cycling. I've been up, down, completely backwards. You've been doing this apparently for a long time. Be good to yourself. I've always read on this site that you will know when it is time to stand down, and if you've reached that point, I admire your courage and resolve.
Isn't it always at your weakest point that the rat Bast34ds turn on you and look human again?
ME: 54 Him: 51 M: 20 years T: 21 years OW/New wife: 36 Sons & Daughters: 7 (ages 24-36) Bomb: March 4, 2010 He Filed: April 28, 2010 I Contested: May 1, 2010 Standing Down: 11/24/10 Divorced : 05/04/2011