Not sure anyone is out there anymore, but I am going to get my thoughts out if nothing else. Met wife this morning in the church parking lot, I was attending she was just picking up dogs, and handed off the dogs.
It was the first time we have seen each other in 19 days. She got out of her car acting like we were long lost friends and seemed like she wanted a hug. I simply handed her the little dog, put the big dog in the backseat of her car, and put a bag of her stuff from my house in the backseat floorboard.
She did get the D papers yesterday and had one question making sure that we weren't forfeiting survivor rights in our pensions. I told her I would talk to attorney tomorrow about it and that I was pulling up my truck and going to church. I really don't like Sunday morning being the time we trade off the dogs because it effects my mood and ability to worship. But, I live 25 miles from her and it makes sense because the church is in the community she lives in.
I think I handled the situation well, but I have to admit that what I really wanted to do was give her a big hug and talk about what has been happening in our lives. I am struggling with the complete absence of physical intimacy in my life, but I have decided that is either going to come from her or I will do without until at least after our D is final. That said, man, a simple hug would be really nice.
Enough for now. Maybe more later tonight.
Last edited by lookin4support; 08/08/1009:09 PM.
M - 43 WAXW - 42 Married - 24 years Together - 25 years S - 23 - passed away 10/17/09 S - 22 Bomb - PA - 6/23/10 - WAW moved in with OM same night D-day - 9/17/10
