I gave up...filed for D

[Gardener]

(((luv)))
I'm so sorry you lost your gma. What a week, what a series of blows.
And your table meltdown? CityGirl put my crazed week - and incongruent reactions - in perspective earlier today

I tend to agree and can actually really relate to what somebody else said...when one major life event happens it somehow seems to reactivate very deep feelings about the WAS...The scar he helped create is so "infected" that any other issues in my life (ones that have NOTHING to do with him) seem to carry me back to the raging infection that is *him*. ...I cried for hours and eventually fell in to such a deep sleep I heard nothing. Purging to the point of exhaustion was what I needed in that moment of time. It doesn't matter why it happened. My mind and body sent me a message that on that day, something had to give. And maybe that is what you are experiencing.

I'm going to get back to healing. It seems as though I took a little dip and need to spring back up. I feel like just giving up then I snap myself out of it. I always thought I could get through a divorce but I was wrong.

I don't expect this down cycle to last long because I'm getting pissed. I refuse to allow someone to make me feel sad. He just isn't worth it.

Sounds to me that you weren't wrong. You will get through this.

You must be reeling.
Be good to yourself.

Peace,