Thank you LRT. It's nice to just know that I'm not the first (or the last) person to be in these shoes. I feel like when I see all my friend's updates on facebook that everyone is having a great time in life, and having a great time with their spouse while my life is just falling apart in pieces.
I am thinking of going tomorrow to join the Y - getting an individual membership (cheaper than one with the kids) and going after I put them to bed. He's usually home by 8 so I can go at 8 or 8:30 - that would be a 180 for me, and I wouldn't be home when he is to be tempted to grill him about if he wants to be married. (Not that I have recently, but it's so tempting to march up there and ask!)
Me 32 H 32 Ds 3.5 and 1.5 M 5 years, T 14 years EA/Bomb: 7/1/10 PA revealed: 9/14/10 Legally separated: 10/01/10