Wife filed for divorce...Is there still hope?

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I guess W figures if all else fails, she will starve me out. Literally, when we do stuff together with the kids, she excludes me from having anything to eat. I do not fight it. I just live with it, but kids do see this treatment, and I think it is setting a bad impression for son. Daughter and son do not seem to have much respect for their mom even though they love her. She is making some fatal mistakes. Son wanted to be with me because he thinks I am very nice to spend so much time with him. Daughter too. They seem to like the fact that it is not about money with me, but it is real love for them that I have.

I really want a job so bad. I hate being dependent on W for anything, and I have for some time. I just want out of the marriage with my kids, and a job. That would make me so happy to just be my own person without her. I have no respect for her anymore, and an ounce of love left is all that remains of our almost 9 year M. It will be little more than a week until our hearing, and I have to remain optimistic that everything will be okay for me and the kids.

I don't how to DB my M with the path that the M has taken.