Gardener, I am similar in a lot of ways. STBXW I suspect was sexually abused as a teen and her parents had a terrible marriage so there were lots of issues I didn't realize I was battling -- along with my own -- until it was perhaps too late.
The longer I go without seeing or hearing from STBXW the more I think about those things and ... hope that she'll somehow, someday get better and that'll mean a return to me.
But then I see her or hear from her and realize, like another poster put it, that she's like an Alzheimer's patient. It's the same beautiful face and body, but the person I married is gone.
The difference between us is that you don't have kids tying you together. I do. I see that Alzheimer's patient entirely too much. I'd rather she just be a memory now.
Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11 http://tinyurl.com/yk4e2tz http://tiny.cc/thread2 http://tinyurl.com/ydtphqu http://tinyurl.com/thread4 http://tinyurl.com/3sm78k6 http://tinyurl.com/thread6
