I tried, I changed, but still am getting divorced!

[newmama]

So tonight I obviously am not doing something great...but I did go for a night walk like I used to do pre-stbxh! I live in a safe neighborhood ...I check the police reports in the paper and the incidents in my area revolve around traffic tickets or vandalism by teenagers. Not to mention that I have left my garage open on accident a few times ALL DAY and NOTHING was stolen. Phew!

Anyway, it is a lovely warm summer evening and I walked for an hour, listening to my ipod to Alanis Morrisette (NOT that song'You Oughta Know') and, hee hee, Belinda Carlisle! That's right! I love "I get Weak," "Mad About You," "Leave a Light On" "Should I Let You In" and "Summer Rain."

I also listened to The Cranberries and had an instant flashback to college dorm days...

Am embracing being alone, I guess. Although I am on here! I have a book that I could read so I might try. It's just that it makes me fall asleep!

Oh and today, stbxh came to pick up S (after his 2nd custody class) and he went to the kitchen (which was a disaster) to get a drink of water. My handle to the oven fell off and I was procrastinating on figuring out how to fix it. He saw it and immediately went to the garage to get a screwdriver to fix it. I also had a bag of stuff to take to the recycle bin and he took it. Well anyway, I still made it clear with my body language and demeanor that I wanted him to leave. So opposite of where I was a couple of months ago!