I know others have said not to think this way, but remember, your husband is a man first, an engineer second. Trust me on this. No matter what, he thinks with the little guy first, and the sliderule second. When he sees you walk out all dolled up looking good, he's curious as hell. Shocked as you say.
I know holding on to hope is hard, but stranger things have happened. Do the things for you, keep a small amount of hope, and don't slam the door. You never know what might happen.
These forums are full of some of the saddest, heartbreaking stories I've ever read, but also full of personal redemption, and sometimes even love and reconciliation.
