My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

Thanks for the words of encouragement! They really help me to stay focused on this narrow path of my own recovery from this nightmare. In my mind, I knew that NC was good for me - but for some reason I fought it. I think there are times when all I hear are his words replaying over and over in my mind and I catch myself believing them all over again. Then I take a deep breath and review the "reality" of this situation - the rewritten history he has developed, the craziness of his choices, the complete detachment from who and what he was. I am fortunate - I have a good job so I don't need his financial support (although it has been an adjustment). I am the primary parent in S's life right now and we are doing ok. But I have to admit that I am exhausted.

Punkin - you needed the other night / you WILL heal. I have been using wine a few times to sleep and I am giving it up for a while. I want S to see me straight and sober / I want to model a better way of handling problems. Plus - I don't want the calories:)

It's beautiful here in southern indiana - low humidity, blue skies - I'm going poolside! Hope you all have a great day and as always thanks for taking the time to care!