Have D8 and a friend -- who is seriously trying and I'm doing my best. I pick up D11 in 90 minutes from horse back riding camp.
Mind is still whirling about STBXW's trip to Sturgis. This is where the optimist in me gets me in trouble.
I've been dreading this trip of hers for months. But part of me deep down thinks this will be good. She'll be in a car with her best friend for 11 hours and her best friend is a big reason we got together in the first place.
She'll spend a week drinking and in the past when she was out partying she was eager to see me after because she'd remember how lucky she was.
That's the optimist in me and I can't kill the guy.
The realist is that if anything she's on the lookout for a new guy if she hasn't already found one and is going on the trip partially to be with him.
This past week I've been worrying that this is the best it gets for me in terms of acceptance. I worry that I'll always go to pieces when I see her.
What happens when the D becomes final? Does a light-switch go off in your head? I hope so. I still Cling To Hope.
Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11 http://tinyurl.com/yk4e2tz http://tiny.cc/thread2 http://tinyurl.com/ydtphqu http://tinyurl.com/thread4 http://tinyurl.com/3sm78k6 http://tinyurl.com/thread6
