Well. Last night was interesting. Not sure how to take it. I took the kids bikes over to my wifes moms house. We walked around the block and had fun with the kids. When it was over we talked about throwing the kids birthday party, etc. After this we talked on and off the rest of the night. I asked a few questions and got some answers. Basicly in short I told her that all we are doing in going around in circles over and over. And that the only way we are going to know if she can be happy again is for her to come home sometime and try it. And she said that made sense. She also acknowledge this relationship derserves a scond chance. She acknowledge all the positives, we love each other,the kids would be happier, the things she didnt like have changed, etc. Then I said dont you think I derserve a 2nd chance, she said yes. I said with all that said then you know you "should" come home then at some point, she said I dont know. So I wrapped all this up with a text later that said I know you are hurting. I know you are down, very low. We all get there in life a one point or another. I am moving on to the next phase of getting you home. I want you home Dec 17th or before for Christmas. I cant keep getting down like I have been doing, becuase if I get down too, I cant help pull you up. Im just going to be gentile, loving and just here for you, because I have convinced you that all the other is legit and I dont have to keep pointing it out. I also said when you have a bad day, I have to look over what you say becuase when you have those days you are negative and talking about maybe filing. But when your calm, level headed you say we derserve a 2nd chance and know the positives. I just feel with 10 years and the kids and how much you know I love you and how you know Ill treat you and you still love me, the good side should win out. So we shall see. I hope the meeting with the pastor is encouraging for her. I think it will be. I hope it goes well and maybe we can see him every two weeks. She said she doesnt care to see our counsler anymore. My counsler said he wants to see me for "free" since he screwed up our "apt" thee other day. He wants to give me a plan. So just when I thought it was over, I think God planted a seed. Sounds like there is still good hope. What do you think??????????
