Wife filed for divorce...Is there still hope?

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DanF,

Thanks DanF. I am doing my best. It is going to be a long week. W and OM are becoming very bold and brazen tonight. He dropped W off in front of our apartment and waited a while. I think that they may be trying to get a reaction from me or hope that I will slip up. It is not going to happen.

It is upsetting because my kids saw this and his car they have seen before. They were very much attached to me tonight. They wanted to go to pizza, and W has all the money, so they asked her to take them, and I went whether she liked it or not. I did not ask. I am going to be with my kids and spend time with them. She offered me water, and I just said no thanks because she knows I like soda and would not buy one for me. I did eat some pizza. I can't starve. Just a little over a week to the hearing. I have to make it no matter what. She was very uphappy and did not spend very much time with kids and just sat at the table. Kids had fun with me.

I think I am really getting to her. I do not react to her. I act to my situation, and I will continue to do this. I have too much with the kids to lose.

I am going to take them to the park and to the pound with W. I wish she was not going, but it will be fun anyways. Kids did not seem to want to be with her tonight. They seem to like to be with me. They felt insecure with their mommy getting a ride with another man. I think what she is doing is just wrong. It is having the opposite effect. I am more determined to follow through with no regrets or remorse.

My kids need me to protect them from this life they did not ask for, and as their Father, I will make sure I do that.

W just seems so depressed and unhappy with what is happening. I guess she realizes I will not give up ever.

I am concerned about what she and OM are up to with him dropping her off right in front of the apartment. It is just plain scary. I have to watch my back. He might try to play hero and come after me. If he does, it will be good because I will have a restraining order placed on him, and it will keep him away from my kids.

I missed a family reunion because of this, and the kids are disappointed. I have to live with that this year. My kids are more important to me right now.