tired of this

[A_goodman]

Need to sleep. Fishing w/ Cub Scouts @ 0600 followed by a 7 hr drive to Austin. Totally worn out and wired at the same time.

W was out of control tonight. We had a tight schedule and everything seemed to go wrong. She got more and more agitated as the night disintergrated into chaos. I used the force and was able to laugh at the situation and kept encouraging her to relax. It would be alright. She was losing it and I was totally chilled out. I kept coming up with solutions that she swore would never work. My answer? "well they certainly won't work if we don't try".

Mind you, none of it was R related. It was so easy to be calm and reasuring. I am getting stronger.

Later, she broke down. All the venom was gone. She just seemed broken. I put my arm around her and let her go. I just sat there and let her go for a long time. When I finally spoke, told her I was worried about her health. That all this emotion she's bottling up is going to start affecting her physically if she doesn't find an outlet. Told her whatever happens, she needs to stay healthy for the kids. After she pulled herself together, I went shopping for fishing supplies W/ S.

Not sure what's going on in there. I hope it's a fight between the fog and the forces of good, but I really have no clue, and don't have an interest in spending much effort to figure it out. Whatever it is will play out in it's own way.

Me? I'm going fishing.

G'night all.