I want to be part of the group...

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Update:

Thursday was my first day back at work, yes school year is off and running again-teachers go back a week prior to students.

Since July I have tried in so many ways to have h agree toa schedule, discuss a schedule, dictate a schedule, ask for a schedule, so thursday morn I shop up to work with my 5 1/2 month old and 3 yr old.

i stayed in room during meetings as long as possible but had to leave because kids were just being kids. i worked some but did not return to work today for mandatory meetings.

h kept saying well i will pick them up but not watch them in ur house, so i caved and guess what he did NOT pick them up.

i'm not blubbering or weakend, i'm totally and completely frustrated. so i ask h what's it gonna take for you to be a father, he says for me to be nice. so i send h a msg, lets set up a time to discuss schedule yet again some time this weekend.

meantime he has a female on his fb thati have no clue who she is, she's not on any of his family's or friends page either.

what did i accomplish today: sold my car 400, sold bbq 50, put some other stuff on craigslist even about child care and renting a room.

i even came up with a plan once i get a car to collect allum cans to turn in for money. if h is not going to support us financially i'm gonna do it without him and lethim fry in court. for even more extra money i will babysit kids on the weekend and summers, maybe even teach an extra class after school to get some extra money or coach. means less time with my kids, kills me but i m trying to feel good about for trying to provide them with a stable home, food, health insurance and screw him if he doesn't give us a penny.

i'm a teacher with a master's degree, veteran, been to the divorce rodeo before he has not, he won't get an attorney i will this time.