Wife filed for divorce...Is there still hope?

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My W wants to take the kids to this theme type place. She told D that I could go if I can pay for myself. I guess we will see where everything will be after the hearing. I think things are looking good for me. I just want it over. I need some type of life to move on completely. I know now that D from her is the only way for me to find peace and happiness. I just don't believe that trust would be found again. I would worry about the next time if we did reconcile for any reason.

I still have a little bit of hope, but it is less everyday.

I have moments of missing her still, but they are less strong and often. I am very disappointed that there was nothing I could do to the save the marriage. I know it is not over, but it feels that way to me.