After Exposure - Keep It Going

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I guess it just gave me alot of comfort when as each thing happened, I had a place to go to for support. And I mean ALOT happened. I guess I am used to the day to day life of her being around, or something happening with her. It's WEIRD being in a place where the is NO contact.

I mean I will still have intel flowing in, but I have decided to only have my system notify me on certain key aspects. The rest will just be archived in case I need to go back.

You know this feels like ALOT when my dad died. Like I just knew he was never coming back. I get why some people say divorcing can be like losing a spouse, but harder because you know they are alive and moving on.

I stood in my living room today, and remembered 2 years ago EXACTLY TO THIS DAY, I was putting together the living room furniture just 2 weeks after we moved in. It was like that day was superimposed on top of this one. It was just surreal, and man I NEVER expected all of this back then.

Sometimes I want to find that guy I was back then, the complaining, bastard, selfish jerk, and just beat him senseless. But I did make my bed, and it's time to lie in it.

I do plan to stay and help others. But I also plan to keep working on ME, and maybe one day when (definitely when) her living situation goes to Hell, I will be in such a better place to deal with that. Maybe 2 months from now - maybe not.

Today is just a surreal day. No bad emotion, just surreal. Memories can be a powerful thing.

And I will DEFINITELY AND ALWAYS be there to help people with infidelity and the bastards who are so selfish to destroy a marriage.