okay, so the papers have been signed and handed to her. Default Decree ... not Concent. I did not want my name on any papers that said I concent to D. The best option besides trial was to agree to terms and let her file it as Default. It's all on her to move forward from here.
The hurt is so intense that I can't even look at her. I handed the envelope to her through the car window and pick-ups and drop offs of the kids are quick and without hellos. I know it's not the right way to act. I'm not mad at her ... I don't hate her ... I just love her and can't bear the sight of what I'm losing. I've tried all of the DB "act as ifs" ... "getting on with life appearance" ... etc. It's just not in me right now. I don't know what to do ... but at least I gave her what she wanted ... stopped fighting her ... and let he get on with whatever she feels she needs to get on with.
