You have come such a long way, my friend, and I am so proud to have followed along..
Sorry you are feeling a bit down at the moment, but this too shall pass.
Here is my thoughts and feelings, just like Gardener, I leaned heavily on family and some very close friends, and that sometimes goes against DB advice.
However, I have found renewed strength, and stronger bonds from it with them, oddly enough for me, even with my guy friends. (Guys are supposed to be tough, and not talk about 'feelings' with there other guy friends...)
That true intimacy though with them, is what strengthened it, and I feel I was blessed to open up to them now.
It took me some courage to do so, but I was so well rewarded after, that I can't thank them enough.
Those are true family and friends, and if you open up to someone you may find a stronger bond than you thought was possible.
Take care, it's up to you, and you know the people in your life!
There is one thing I have truly learned, sometimes there is no 'right' decision about something, there is just a choice to make, and then you follow that path wherever it leads..
M: 41 STBXW: 41 D: 9 Bomb: 4/26/09
On board the D train now..
"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."
