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Yes, that was really my response. I'm so resigned to him leaving over and over again that I'm beginning to expect it every time he takes a downward turn. Heck, I pull up to the house every day after work and am continually surprised his stuff isn't gone. He likes to just disappear. Of course, he has no place to go so I don't know where he'd pack himself off to.

Donna, love the article. SO SO SO SO TRUE! I am insane. It's official. I always knew that though.

Ali, he won't go to a doctor. No insurance so he can't afford the exorbitant fee as well as the cost of the prescription. He did decide to try DHEA and St. John's Wort. We'll see. I really don't think it's going to be enough and I told him that. We'll see.

There is a continuing thought here. Would I be better off to have him completely out of my life? I don't like being completely on my own handling everything with Marc. Frankly, I need the help. Do my emotional needs take precedence over Marc's needs? I don't think so. Marc deserves every bit of support I can give him and if that means that my needs aren't met, so be it. No, I'm not being a martyr! I'm being a mom with a special needs child. He has to come first at all times. Simple.

Time to stop being so ridiculously selfish and just concentrate on what is absolutely best for him. For now, that means keeping his dad in his life as long as Gabe's nuttiness is not hurting Marc. He doesn't show any of this to Marc, he acts totally normal with him, so I'm not concerned about it. That could change, but for now it's ok and Marc likes having him here.