Soaring Solo 2010

[Gardener]

FMV,

Still making progress in M; we have our ups and downs. The downs really rattle me but I'm learning to not shut down or withdraw through them. Continuing to GAL -

I forget the staus of your sitch. Your post reads like you're piecing/reconciling. Do I read this right?
Peace,

[hoosiermama]

Quick journal,

Had an uncharitable, though non-malicious thought about X today:

"I can't wait until you're still not happy.
Because it wasn't me."

Almost sounds like it belongs in a Country Western song, doesn't it?

Peace,

So sad, but so true.

[Sister]

Gardener - Thanks so much for looking in on Awoken. He has been reaching out to family, but I sometimes feel at a loss to help him. I've never been through this (Thank the Lord!) and don't feel I have the perspective he needs right now.

He's very down on himself. Breaks my heart.

Gardener, I have 2 or 3 threads that I follow regularly and yours is one of them. You make me think of things in a whole new way. I'm glad you are finding a new place that works for you. And I really enjoy your 'verbose' writing! :-)

Hugs. and Smiles.

[Gardener]

Sister,
Done.
Peace,

[Gardener]

Sister,
p.s.

...I sometimes feel at a loss to help him. I've never been through this

just continue to let him know you will listen to him whenever he wants for as long as he wants and as often as he wants.

Also, call him randomly and often. So many times, in my worst moments, I would just need to talk to my brother or a friend again and I would think, "I gotta stop bothering them, I do this too much, they must be sick of all my repeated ranting."

And then I would think, "But since they know I'm in pain it sure would be nice for them to call at times like this. I just wish someone would call...right now."

Peace,

[hoosiermama]

I hear ya, gardener.

[Sister]

Sister,
p.s.

...I sometimes feel at a loss to help him. I've never been through this

just continue to let him know you will listen to him whenever he wants for as long as he wants and as often as he wants.

^ This I do.

Also, call him randomly and often. So many times, in my worst moments, I would just need to talk to my brother or a friend again and I would think, "I gotta stop bothering them, I do this too much, they must be sick of all my repeated ranting."

Yes, I have heard this from him. I try to make sure he knows he can ALWAYS call, I'll never get tired of talking to him.

And then I would think, "But since they know I'm in pain it sure would be nice for them to call at times like this. I just wish someone would call...right now."

This I do now and then, probably not as often as I should. I'm always hopeful when I don't hear from him that he's doing better. Thanks for your words of advice. I will take them to heart.

[iwantittowork]

Hey my friend, I have a lot of catching up to do on your sitch! Wow, it has grown a bit since I last stopped by.

I read through your last few pages, and it seems you are doing well, how are things these days?

I have been off site for a while, but I find myself frequently thinking of people from DB, and hoping they are doing well. You are one of those, so I wanted to check in.

Peace,
Ititw

[Gardener]

iwitw,

Better and better, thanks.
Just posted on your thread.

Peace,

[Gardener]

Sister,

Thanks for your words of advice. I will take them to heart.

Sounds like you already do. I'm not surprised; you're obviously a d@mned good sister.

Peace,