Is thier hope for us?

[MarkIII]

Hang in there and yes this is just the start. The roller coaster ride is wild trust me. (Knew I hated them for some reason). I myself have not called a coach yet. Money is real tight. I have been reading and following along on this forum. I have been saying I will do the 180 but something inside me keeps me going right back trying to reach out. My STBXW has withdrawn so much she even has a restraining order. (she left to have a EA with a policeman) it went to rocks last week but as of yesterday guess what he was back on her Facebook. She even was laughing about it to one of her old school friends (which sent me the conversation). So I've tried begging borrowing and everything else in between. We go to a 4 way lawyer mediation next week. So the only thing I really have left is the total 180. I posted a song on my Facebook yesterday (The Gambler) and put on my status you have to know when to holdem or fold em and I was folding them. No more facebook for me least for now. Trust me the temptations along with the hurt is killing me. She wont even let me see my two kids unless the court orders it, I can not be a minute early nor late that is how bad she has been. Im 36 she is 24 and I think it is some age factor as well.
Well good luck stay in touch, keep your head up think positive.