I told her that I would love to, but I didn't know what was fair. I didn't want to short change you or screw myself over in the process.
I will find my answer one way or another, it is just going to take some time, and I think she is getting impatient. Not that it bothers me in the least, but I do not want to start fighting about the kids. That is one area that we haven't really fought about, so we will see. It may only just be matter of time before that happens. Who knows.
But back to me. I have stopped hanging by threads waiting for those proverbial bread crumbs to be tossed out for me. I am also learning valuable lessons of expectations. All of these talks with the wife about divorce has slowly but surely driven the point home that I have to take care of myself first.
I have new goal coming out of this. I want to be the best Dad I can be for my two kids. I know its a big one, but it will keep me focused. The first step in that process will be keeping my mind right, and staying positive. Not about the marriage, but about myself. If I can stay happy and strong through out a divorce from 8000 miles away, I can do anything!
The next thing part of this plan is start asking myself one question before I make any decision. "Is this what is best for myself and my kids". I think this will help me take some of the focus off of my "feelings" What do you think Puppy?
I know I wandered off topic . . .
Wandered?? G8, that's just about the healthiest, strongest, most sensible set of thoughts I've seen you post yet!! YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT TRACK, SOLDIER!!
