Another thing he mentioned, his new house is like twice the size of this house!!And it just sounds like one step up from this house! The thing is weve been looking for a bigger family house for a couple years, but whatever I liked, he didnt, and vise verse And that got put off, because he wanted to buy a house by the river, to which I got a bit cross cause it meant putting off a family home for another long period of time, and S is starting to get big now, and this little house with its postage stamp of grass is just too small
When we did find a house that we both liked, he eventually ummed and ahhed, and said naaah he cant see me in it thats where things started going wonky with us....he wanted what HE wanted , and I was just getting in the way
Anyway, just feels a bit yucky...but its helping that I've let go, and see him as a sep individual from me now, with his own decisions.
Its like he got this big successfull business with all this money to spend, and I was the only thing standing in the way of spending it on whatever his heart desires I dont know if its like this for sure, just seems a bit like that
And that got put off, because he wanted to buy a house by the river, to which I got a bit cross cause it meant putting off a family home for another long period of time, and S is starting to get big now, and this little house with its postage stamp of grass is just too small 