Long Distance Issues.....Possible WAW

[Dazed&Confused]

Puppy, you are right again. The fear I have right now is a direct result of lack of knowledge. I will keep on trying to get consults, and hopefully I find that lawyer that can help me.

I really have no other choice. At this point, we only have the child support amount to figure out. That is what I am in the dark the most. I told her that i would do the parenting plan and then she could review it for anything that needs to be changed. Her lawyer put a figure in her head about child support that is going to make things extremely difficult for me. She said that her jaw hit the floor when she heard it. It was 300 more than the highest number I have seen on any calculator, and I know for a fact that it was taking joint physical custody into account.

I mentioned these to her, and she said that she knew that I couldn't afford that, and that is why we need to come up with a number between the two of us. I told her that I would love to, but I didn't know what was fair. I didn't want to short change you or screw myself over in the process.

I will find my answer one way or another, it is just going to take some time, and I think she is getting impatient. Not that it bothers me in the least, but I do not want to start fighting about the kids. That is one area that we haven't really fought about, so we will see. It may only just be matter of time before that happens. Who knows.

But back to me. I have stopped hanging by threads waiting for those proverbial bread crumbs to be tossed out for me. I am also learning valuable lessons of expectations. All of these talks with the wife about divorce has slowly but surely driven the point home that I have to take care of myself first.

I have new goal coming out of this. I want to be the best Dad I can be for my two kids. I know its a big one, but it will keep me focused. The first step in that process will be keeping my mind right, and staying positive. Not about the marriage, but about myself. If I can stay happy and strong through out a divorce from 8000 miles away, I can do anything!

The next thing part of this plan is start asking myself one question before I make any decision. "Is this what is best for myself and my kids". I think this will help me take some of the focus off of my "feelings" What do you think Puppy?

I know I wandered off topic, back on, and then to another. I am kind of scattered brained right now. Well, I am going to get another list of lawyers to call and see if I have any luck today.

Thanks again for the input. I need wakeup calls, just like anyone else. Oh, and if my fogged induced wayward does offer me a great deal, I think I am ready to take it.