Oh Punkin - (BTW - I'm a cheap drunk too - usually pink wine:))

All that you are feeling is valid - there's a lot to show for 20 years but even more to show for the next 20 - start thinking "forward":)

M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time