Well this great counsler was not there for our last apt. LOL We argued bad while we thought he was running over in his previous apt, turns out he wasnt there. She talked a lot on the way home finally "answerng the whys" and not with IDK's. She actually said she loved me more than she let on but not like she did and that she thought she couldnt be happy with me. I found a note she wrote while waiting, saying she hoped I found someone who would treat me good, but she ripped it up, but i pieced it together. I asked her to delay the filing (sept 2010) to July 2011. She said she didnt want me to keep hurting. I said if she loved me like she said and she loves the kids why not wait and did she love us enough to do that? She said she loved us enough that wasnt the problem. I asked her to let me lead us in prayer ( she never would let me before ) she did tonight. I asked again about the delay, she said I dont know. I asked her if God could turn this around wouldnt it be great and she said yes. I asked to set up another apt with my pastor, she agreed. But said counsling sucked and was a waste and that she talked more in the van than in 4 sessions. So I called the Pastor and thats set up for the end of next week. I asked her to pray nightly and talked about turning her life over to God. She said she might pray. I told her that this could be God planting the seed at the last second. I called her back with the time of the apt and she said I still dont think this will change anything, but I said just pray about it and lets go see what happen. I purchased her a bible about a week ago. I think the counsler ( he got confused he has 3 offices and he was at the wrong one)not showing up actually helped. She has text me tonight chit chatting about the kids about 5 times. I just keep it simple and will shut my mouth until the apt. I will sent a verse by text nightly. When leaving my daughter said infront of my wife I hope mommy comes home. I just answered when you say your prayers tonight just asked God to help us and we will see what happens. I appericate your prayers and will keep u updated.I didnt expect this to happen tonight. Nothing changed but it was a peaceful moment.
