Not sure where to start, or end. WAW?

[john28]

Well, she comes back tomorrow from MIL after being gone 10 days. The first 2 or so days were rough - I was a miserable mess. Then I broke down on day 5 and was a mess. But, so far, it's been 5 straight days of keeping my cool, giving her space, and not calling her at all.

I'm really nervous about her coming home tomorrow, and this is weird. Nervous to be around my W? This is unsettling.

I'm not sure how to act when she comes home. I'm going to try really hard to give her space and be super nice dude with my 180 - but I know it's going to be very very hard since I haven't seen her in 10 days. I know that I'm going to want to ML to her and touch her. God, I hope I can keep it together.

I think I'm most scared about what happens the moment she walks in the door. I'm hoping for a hug and a kiss because that's what she gave when she left to go on this trip. We were still hugging and kissing when I gave her space. I'm really really afraid she's going to come in cold without any affection like she's completely distanced herself now. I'm so very afraid of that right now.

I know, I know. MAN UP, i keep telling myself. But it will really be a disappointment if she comes in with zero affection tomorrow night. I know what you all are going to say - zero expectations, detach, yes yes yes.... but I still desire the touch of my W.