Just a journal. Not so much a M problem, but an issue that has caused us M problems, and I fear, will continue to do so. A not-so-good day today. Low self esteem raises it's nasty head again, as a dear friend of mine; once my best friend in school, visits from out of town. She's the successful one - fabulous career with an equally fabulous paycheck; slim and pretty; beautiful kids, great attitude towards life; organized, together, confident. I'm well - everything but.

I can't stop comparing. And it's paralyzing me. I could barely work today; just felt like such a failure.

I've tried the whole 'count your blessings' thing; the listing your strengths objectively and in an uncritical way - it doesn't seem to help. I'd love to talk with my IC about it but she's out of town this month. This is really getting me down.

And the worst of it is, it makes me feel so down it drains me of the energy and motivation I need to be able to turn those areas of my life I'm dissatisfied with, around. I'm so stuck.

Thoughts, 2x4s, suggestions, any and all would be appreciated.

Last edited by FindingMyVoice; 08/06/10 12:02 AM.
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.