My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

Today was a milestone for me. I actually slept from 12am-6am and did not wake up AND when I woke up H was NOT the first thing I thought of. OK - he did come to mind a minute or so later ~ but there was a brief time when I didn't think about it!

Work went well (thank goodness) ~ made several presentations over the last few days that impressed the boss so I'm making some movement forward there.

I took S to register for school ~ REALLY didn't want to go but S asked if I would and I didn't let him know I didn't want to be in front of the people that H works with. Luckily did not see H. Just paid the bills ~ supported S ~ and left.

H emails me AND texts me "hey are you available to talk about S's schedule? he may want to make some changes"... Used my filter "Is this an EMERGENCY? - do I need to respond" Answered myself "No" so I texted S and asked him to let his dad know if he wanted his schedule changed and that he has his physical set up. I need some self-preservation ~ and someone on this board advised a while ago about NC unless urgent. It felt good - although I worried that it would probably agitate H. But here's the deal ~ we are not currently co-parenting. I am not responsible for H's relationship with the kids (thanks Brooklyn, Grace, Cat, Gritt, Eric, etc....). I also talked to S and told him that I never want to put him in between his dad and me and if he ever feels like that is happening to please let me know.

So today I feel better - thanks for sticking by me!!